she falls apart

Oh how my heart aches
From the hurt and pain you made
The joy and laughter, the sadness and sorrow
It adds on upon dawning tomorrows

I just wanted you to be happy
To be wild and run free
How was I to know your expectations?
Your demands and perfection?

I thought you cared for me
And loved me quite deeply
Now I know I was wrong
It was never true all along

Nevertheless I tried to please
Every detail of your needs
I rushed to catch you when you fall
But you never appreciated me at all

I’m so hurt I can’t imagine
Myself down on my knees begging
But that will never ever happen
Not now, not later, not even when I’m in heaven

You don’t even know me as a friend
How can you claim to lend a hand?
How can you say you love me so
When you can’t even let her go?

Now as I sit and reflect my past
I always knew it’ll never last
But you refused to listen, not even once
That’s the reason the wedge is between us

Like I said I want you to be happy
Not just for you, but for me
I guess we’ll have to go our seperate ways
And bid farewell to those lovely days

Last three words I want you to know
Not just because I miss you so
But now that we’re about to part
‘I love you’ right from my heart

When you see me you turn away
To the other direction to avoid my face
How could you ever treat me this way?
You’re putting me in an awkward place

I couldn’t help it, I’m just like that
You can’t force me to change my ways
You can’t control the way I act
So you lead me on day after day

How could you just take it, and shove it back to me?
Don’t you know it’s fragile too?
Now you’ve left me wandering aimlessly
I’m quite lost without you

Part of me just died away
When you said those hurtful words
That awful, horrible, unforgettable day
Would always be there, pained with hurt

It’s been done, I’ve broken down
It may take long, it may be awhile
Somehow, I still wished you’d return now
Please come back and make me smile