she falls apart

I’m no angel
I’m just a passing star
Just dropped by on earth
To see how you are

You were so young then
So weak and alone
I took your hand and
Gave you a home

B’now you’re all grown up
Y’looked in my face
And blew right up

Chorus:
I’m sorry that this is all I could give
I’m sorry your life is all you can live
I’m sorry but all I did was my best
But nevertheless
I gave you all that I could
I gave you all that I should
But why can’t you believe
Did you really have to leave?

You had to leave…

So alone now
Recalling up the past
We didn’t make it
Why didn’t it last?

Used to hate them
When we met you gave me one
I accepted that
And then it begun

Now all you see is her
Covered in lace
Satin and fake fur

Chorus

You just leave…

Why’d you leave?
Can’t you see
How much this’
Hurtin’ me?

Don’t you have
A better
Way to just
Tell her

I’m no angel
I’m just a passing star
Just dropped by on earth
To see how you are

Have you ever felt that at times,
You don’t think you could ever
Achieve what you dream?

I have.

Have you ever felt that
No matter how many times
You’ve said, “I will do it.”
That your focus is on it,
That everything was gonna count on it,
And that you visualise it’s gonna happen,
Yet you had to screw it?

I have.

Have you ever felt that
Of all the bad things
That could happen to you,
Fate chose the very worst?

I have.

Just a thought.
A thought.

How can a mother
Unwelcome her own child?
Same blood
Same flesh
Her kin
All because of fear
Is fear stronger than love?
Love for her child?
Superstitions
Breaking the bonds

* This is actually about my mom and her mom. I was really shocked to find out that my grandma disallowed my mom to visit her for the Lunar New Year that year as my Ye Ye (my paternal grandfather) passed away not too long ago.

Superstitions… *shakes head*

Chorus:
He meant alot to me
Can’t you see
It wasn’t that easy

He meant alot to me
Don’t you see
It wasn’t meant to be

Sitting on these large stone steps
Looking at
Nothing up ahead

Thinking ’bout the times we’ve had
Not much said
And the things we shared

Looking at the skies so blue
Nothing’s new
When I’m without you

As the clouds turn dark and grey
Everything’s changed
As you walk away

Chorus

Overcoming destiny
Patiently
As I wait and see

But it all remains the same
That’s the game
As I lost with shame

Getting on with life each day
Hurt still stays
And the pain remains

Thinking as I write this rhyme
I’ll be fine
I just need some time

Chorus

why am I always holding on to something that won’t last? something that was just a dream. a fantasy. nothing but a memory. a hope that lives but dies as fast as a smothering flame.

Why do we still keep holding on
To something that isn’t real?
A dream
A fantasy
Something that can never be fulfilled
Where there is no hope
And faith is buried
Yet our tender heart
Still believes that awful lie
That it’ll all come true
One day