she falls apart

A lonely figure standing
At the beach waiting
The moonlight falls against
Her small willowy build
Casting a faint silhouette
On the sandy bay

A look of disappointment
Crosses her face
As slowly she realised
The meeting was never
Ever going to take place

Hurt overwhelms
When it dawned upon her
That she was taken in
He had cheated her
Took advantage
Of her naiveness
For his fame and arrogance

She sank on her knees
As she lost all hope
Sobbing most pitifully
As she criticised herself

am I not good enough?
not pretty enough?
was I too demanding?

As the shadow
Of disappointment
Looms over her
Like a greying cloud
She gave up
On giving any hope
As she sat and stare
At the crashing waves

Disappointment

Why am I just pushed aside
After you’re done with me?
Do you take me for a fool
That you can let go that easily?

Everytime you talk to me
It’s as though you care
Once I turn around you’re gone
And I start to despair

Then I start a rampage
And in everything I do
I place my hurt and confusion
And I blame it on you

After some time
You start this again
Talking and laughing and joking
‘You’re my friend,’ you claim

Then you repeat history
Back to square one
You treat me like a fool
And you think it’s fun

That you never know
Cos I never say
To you it’s still a mystery
Up until today

Tell me

Why do you chuck me
After you’ve got what you want?
If you need a player
I’m sorry, I’m not the one

how would you feel
when you’ve heard
that the guy you once liked
and liked you back
chucked you to the shelf
of the forgotten
after three months
and never looked back
never said anything
no explanations
got a girlfriend
six months later?

told you that fact
a month later

after a month
of a blissful relationship
after a month
of sweet nothings
after a month
of happy memories
all these while
I’ve been nothing to you

I’ve learnt…
That no matter what I say
Folks still have something to put me down
And not encourage me in any way

So I’ve learnt to shut up

I’ve learnt…
That no matter how I try
No one sees the effort that’s put in
Nor the hard work as they walk by

So I’ve learnt to stop trying

I’ve learnt…
That when you need your friend to be there
Turns out that he ain’t around
But it’s strangers who care

So I’ve learnt not to make best friends

I’ve learnt…
That whenever I give my heart
To someone else I love
He uses, he plays, he tears apart

So I’ve learnt not to love

A cool breeze gently brushed my cheek
As I think of you before I sleep
Wherever you are
Any day, any week
You’ll be close to my heart
So close, too deep…

The sorrow that clings
Deep down inside
Hurts too much
It can’t be described

The wind blows the chime
That sang a lullaby
Brushing away the tears
That flowed from my eyes

As I sat watching
That night at the window
Gone were my hopes
For all tomorrows

No one can ever
Temove the pain
I’ve held in my heart
For far too long

The only thing
That I can do
Right now is to
Stand up and be strong

For the pain
Deep in my heart
For all this time
Has grown

So firm it’s roots
Held on to me
And other place
Of the unknown

Dejected (adj) unhappy, disappointed or lacking hope

Sometimes…
No matter what I do
I feel like it was worthless
Pointless
Meaningless
And it never gets to you

Sometimes…
When I’m waiting patiently
For you to turn around
To look
To search
When I’m there but you never see

Sometimes…
I’ve been waiting far too long
For you to sought me out
To help
To heal
But it’s too late—I’ve gone