she falls apart

They were dear memories that I treasured despite the fact that
I knew that they cannot last forever as much as I had hoped
they would. They were irreplaceable unless they were
stored in the card. The oldest one from that card
was dated in May two years ago. It was dear
to me because you cared for me even
before we were together. Now,
recalling it makes me sad.
I just pray that it will
be returned to me
by tomorrow.

actually, I don’t remember
I’m sorry also to say that I don’t remember a lot abt my past
perhaps it’s better that way
perhaps I’ve just pushed it too far back in my mind
hoping that nothing will trigger it back to the surface
hoping that it would be forgotten

forever

After five months of working at the restaurant, I have noticed
that whenever a couple dines together (be it friends, colleagues,
lovers, etc), it will always be the lady who fishes out
her card/cash when the bill is being presented.

Dear Dene,
        How are you? I miss you. I really
        do. New York sounds awesome
        whenever I read it from your
        point of view. One day, when
        I have the money, I’ll visit you
        and you can show me around.
        Write back soon.
                                        Love, Nadine

Four tables sitting silently
Lost in their own private world
One reads a hard cover novel
One browses the selection of magazines
Another surfs the internet
The last one sits and stares

I am like that last table
Sitting in my place
Staring at the world

He stares at me as
I gaze at him with longing that
Pulls my heart towards him
Inevitable

He looks rich with a
Lustrous dark shade that
Melts my heart as
I imagine him in me

In my mouth
Rolling across my tongue
Making me savour
Every bite

Misery!—
Is the silence
That builds around me
Suffocating me

Torture!—
Is the stillness
Of the phone
It doesn’t beep

Hope!—
Is the small feeling
That flickers against the breeze
As I snuff it out

I feel really sorry her
monster as she is

and sorrier for those poor babies
who were not given a chance at life
at all

* I wrote this after reading a horrifying article here