So I decided to be patient and to wait
Instead of constantly harassing you
Making you irritated with my wondering
But do you know that I worry so
When I get no word from you at all
The unanswered calls, the calls with no returns
I worry until my heart is sick
And then I see that you’re fine after all
You ignored me while you entertained
Will you not
answer my calls
nor return them
anymore, Sweet?
We played our game of thumb wrestling
You were smiling so happy, laughing
I felt the prick and the tears, welling
I looked down while the tears, threatening
We finished our game of thumb wrestling
I turned away before the tears, falling
Beat my chest as my heart, breaking
Wednesday night was such a bittersweet night
You were rather caring and you held me tight
But my emotions ran amok like water flowing
I clenched my fist into a ball and held my sobbing
I smell of love
sadly, not his
I smell of lust
most are his
maybe he has thrown
some care into as well
me? I’ve thrown everything
and all that I have into this
I just wanna say that I love you
I just wanna say that I’ll do anything for you
I just wanna say that I hurt
I just wanna say that it’s okay
I just wanna say that you shouldn’t worry
I just wanna say that I wish you could believe me
I just wanna say that I’m really true
I just wanna say that I’m lost
I just wanna say that I love being with you
I just wanna say that I love the time we spent together
I just wanna say that I’ve given everything
I just wanna say that I still believe you
I just wanna say that it does matter to me that you may still bluff me, that you may still hide things from me
I just wanna say that I can’t say it doesn’t matter
I just wanna say that I’ll still believe you
I just wanna say that even if you’re bluffing me, I still believe you
I just wanna say that it hurts should I find out it was a lie
I just wanna say that I still believe you anyway
I just wanna say that you mean everything to me
I just wanna say that I may not mean anything but its okay
I just wanna say that it’s not okay
I just wanna say that I have to say its okay so that you won’t have to worry
I just wanna say
I just wanna say
I just wanna say please don’t go
I just wanna say please don’t go
I just wanna say please don’t go
I just wanna say that I know you’re in a fix
I just wanna say please give me that open chance
I just wanna say that
I just wanna say that I really mean what I say
I just wanna say that I love you
I dial a number
but it seems like everyone
ignores the unknown
Left on the shelf
While you polish that
New trophy of yours
That shines brightly
Left me to dull
To rust
To nothing
Not even a memory
As I desperately
Struggle to show
That I can shine for
You as well
You proudly show
That new and bright
Trophy off to everyone
But me