And sadly, I realized that I’ve no
one to share this news with
The first person I really wanted to tell
is lying right beside me
But I’ve still yet to say anything
and he’s busy with his video anyway
I once wrote a poem about train rides
About how they’ll never be the same again
Funny how those rides felt pretty normal
After some time
Now, years later, I sit on this train
Traveling along the same line like I do
Great Expectations sits before me on my lap
But I can’t seem to focus on the words
Perhaps it’s the blasting of Minutes to Midnight
Whenever I hear any track from that record
I am constantly reminded of him
Funny, I never really liked it to begin with
I feel like a little girl once again. The little giggly feeling tries to escape my throat every now and then. I feel like the little sister once again. I was surprised when he tapped my head lightly. I was having a rough day today. I’m glad he asked me to go shopping. I don’t need to drink tonight.
I wondered how you were
I wondered if you were fine
I wondered if you were happy
I wondered if you had a good day or not
I wondered if you were busy
I wondered if you slept well
I wondered if you dreamed sweet dreams
I tried not to wonder if you’ve thought of me
I tried not to wonder if you’ve missed me
I tried not to wonder if you’ve dreamed about me
I tried not to wonder if I was even in your mind
I tried not to wonder why you didn’t respond to my messages
I’m just trying what I can
I’m just doing what I have to
I’m just giving what I have left