she falls apart

I wasn’t thinking about you. So why did you invade it? I did not open my door. Why did you force yourself in? Did I accidentally-on-purpose leave that door unlocked? Did I want you in all along? Did I allow you that privilege?

But it felt real. My surprise and happiness felt strongly and oddly tangible. Like I could still feel it on my cheek. The warmth of your touch. That look in your eyes. Your image burns my eyes.

I guess I still miss you.

I saw the familiar black Puma bag hanging by the cupboard. Yet it did not occur to me that it would belong to him. Shawn accidentally knocked a pair of bermudas and a pair of boxers fell out. He came and was teasted about his striped boxers. Had he turned around, he would have seen me. But he did not and left for the showers. It was nice seeing him back to this. It’s been a long time.

people wear masks to cover
their true being
in which, everyone thinks that
it’s wrong
but, just perhaps, that true being is a much too
painful reality
and they just want to live in
a fantasy
that is why people wear
masks

I thought we could be
                        supers
I thought you could teach me to
                        fly