she falls apart

I really wish that
I can see you right now so
that I can hug you

I know my reasons will never be good enough
I know that people are hurt
But these shall be my reasons as they are tough
I shall apologise if I am curt

I can’t say that I love my life
I can’t say that I totally hate it
But there are many moments with the knife
And, well, yes they hurt a bit

Some may be shocked at this revelation
Some may have expected it so
But there may be no concrete conclusion
In any case, I’ve got to go

They say that the strong always stay
The weak ones just give up
But there will always be a day
That these lips will pass the cup

I fear I’ve said too much
Or maybe that was my all
These are the reasons at such
Thank you for witnessing my fall

I make you laugh;
I make you happy.
You make me want to
live.

Thank you for being
my friend.

It’s like another slap to my face. Another pain in my heart. Another crack in my life. And I don’t understand why.

Why?

Even though we are far, far apart, I am still reminded of the little things. I almost laughed at that little memory. It was funny. But it also brought a pang inside me. It hit so bad I almost stumbled.

You said many things to me. And I trusted you. Despite getting hurt over and over again and again, I trusted you.

So, why are we like this?