she falls apart

Flutter by
Baby you and I
Come and play with me

Flutter by
Baby you and I
Come and play with me

I don’t understand
Why you hurt me so
Put your heel on me
Grind me as I grow

You don’t wanna give
A chance for you and me
You think it’s just a game
A game just meant to be

Pre-chorus:
But you don’t even want this chance..

Chorus:
Why do you push me away
Face me and say
You don’t love me now

Why don’t you just understand
Can’t we be friends
As you turn me down

Do you think this is okay
Watch as I sway
As I crumble down

Why do you hurt me again
Give me this pain
As you bring me down

I don’t understand
Why it ends this way
You don’t get what you want
What you want to play

I’ve told you time
And time I’ve told you again
I offer you my hand
But you don’t hand the pain

Pre-chorus

Chorus

I don’t understand
You don’t understand
Why can’t we be friends?
Should we be friends?

You push me away
I’ve nothing to say
But please take all this pain
From me far away…

Chorus x3

It’s been a year
Since I last touched the flames of love
It’s been a year
Since last summer when Jackie told me from up above

It’s been so long
And all along…

Chorus:
Cursed pieces
I’ve nothing to show
Wretched places
I’ve nowhere to go

It’s been a year
Since that hurtful night you went away
It’s been a year
And up till now I’m crying every day

It’s been so long
And all along…

Chorus

It’s been a year
But it feels like lifetimes ago
It’s been a year
And I wonder if he will ever know

Chorus

You said you’ll make that broken doll
But you never did
It hurt me so much so inside
But I never cried
You never even give a damn
So why should I care

Should I care?

Chorus:
Empty promises tonight
Why can’t anyone see
These tears that fall upon my face
I feel so out of place
Can’t anybody see how much I hurt inside
Empty promises tonight
There’s nothing left to hide

You said to wait for your phone call
But it never came
So I just waited the whole day
I didn’t even blame
You couldn’t care any much less
So why should I cry

Should I cry?

Chorus

You said you’ll never make me cry
So why are there tears
Engraved upon my broken heart
Torn and fallen apart
And all you do is stand and stare
Do you even care

Do you care?

Chorus

You said you’ll make that broken doll
But you never did
It hurt me so much so inside
But I never cried
You never even give a damn
So why should I care

Should I care?

I’m no angel
I’m just a passing star
Just dropped by on earth
To see how you are

You were so young then
So weak and alone
I took your hand and
Gave you a home

B’now you’re all grown up
Y’looked in my face
And blew right up

Chorus:
I’m sorry that this is all I could give
I’m sorry your life is all you can live
I’m sorry but all I did was my best
But nevertheless
I gave you all that I could
I gave you all that I should
But why can’t you believe
Did you really have to leave?

You had to leave…

So alone now
Recalling up the past
We didn’t make it
Why didn’t it last?

Used to hate them
When we met you gave me one
I accepted that
And then it begun

Now all you see is her
Covered in lace
Satin and fake fur

Chorus

You just leave…

Why’d you leave?
Can’t you see
How much this’
Hurtin’ me?

Don’t you have
A better
Way to just
Tell her

I’m no angel
I’m just a passing star
Just dropped by on earth
To see how you are

Chorus:
He meant alot to me
Can’t you see
It wasn’t that easy

He meant alot to me
Don’t you see
It wasn’t meant to be

Sitting on these large stone steps
Looking at
Nothing up ahead

Thinking ’bout the times we’ve had
Not much said
And the things we shared

Looking at the skies so blue
Nothing’s new
When I’m without you

As the clouds turn dark and grey
Everything’s changed
As you walk away

Chorus

Overcoming destiny
Patiently
As I wait and see

But it all remains the same
That’s the game
As I lost with shame

Getting on with life each day
Hurt still stays
And the pain remains

Thinking as I write this rhyme
I’ll be fine
I just need some time

Chorus

It’s okay it don’t matter anymore
Just go away, walk right out the door
I regretted as you walk me by
And I found out that it all was a lie

It hurts too much to say it’s okay
As I live on day after day
It took me by total surprise
As I saw you with my own eyes

How could you lead me on and make me believe
That the truth was just a simple myth
You know I don’t trust all those fairy tales
Cos romance is something I always fail

You’ve hurt me too much it took my life
It felt like my heart was cut with a knife
You came, you stayed, you took away
As I watch with pain and stumble and sway

I can’t believe it’s real, it can’t be true
What about the things I felt with us two?
You can’t just turn your back and leave me behind
Is that to prove that I was totally blind

You’ve put to heart a lie that someone has told
Now the doors of trust between us has closed
I hope you’ll take the chance and break these four walls
Before I’m insane and lose it them all

* Wrote this on the way home with the wind on my face and tears in my eyes after a long, horrible Saturday. Kept going through the first two lines when I realised it sounded similar to ‘Follow Me’ by Uncle Kracker (is it?) This is a song written with full emotion contributed with much hurt and pain. And disappointment.

Losing hope.
Losing faith.
Losing courage… to fall again.

Sometimes, life doesn’t go your way
Love, it ain’t easy
People kill…
Still…

The busboy comes, the wind blows
Where I go, no one knows
Fly away
Far away

Chorus:
Why oh why
Why can’t I try
Why can’t you see
It wasn’t meant to be

Oh, life
It cuts me like a sharp knife
Oh how my heart aches
As if it’s gonna break

Pressure piles, head spins
Lonely world, deep in sin
Can’t break free
Stuck in me

Two sides now, caught between
Where to go, deep within
I don’t know
Who to go…

Chorus

Voices in my head they shout
“What the hell are these about?”
They can’t take it anymore
Wish I was back before…